So, this is what has happened...

Something of an unprecedented amount of fail occurred to me last month some time. I failed quite badly. I tried hard to regain my win, but I just continued to fail. I felt like perhaps I was trying a bit too hard, but I was assured that in my current state, I was actually already winning and have always won. I didn't feel like that however.

So a certain group wide event took place only a few days later and I decided that I would take action on the way I was feeling. It seemed like I was going to win, more than I ever had done ever before. However, it turned out that the whole idea was a huge stinking pile of fail. It failed not only because it was financially irreversible once backed out of, but also because it was inappropriate after a vito was performed amongst members of a social clan. Various people proceeded to deem me as a loony, and I did not blame them. So the fail continued...

Only a few weeks pass by and a certain day of the month provokes thoughts and feelings of win in my mind. The cogs of win were turning, and a big win plan was formed. I travelled a fair distance in order to get the correct components for the event I was planning. I asked for some luck from a group of people, and this was granted, however not in full (there was no McLuck). The luck did help on the day of planning, but when it came to the day, I failed when I had a shave in the morning and the fail continued throughout the day in the form of excessive perspiration and ultimately ended in some more fail. However, I managed to make my way back to a warm bed that night.

I try to forget about just how much I have failed. So something comes along and helps me to forget about just how much I was failing. I make arrangements to perhaps forget about my fail some more, and this plan is executed about half way. I realise at this half way point that if I decided to win completely in this particular plan, then I will ultimately be failing, probably to the point where I would have to completely mask my identity forever more.

This brings us up to the present moment, so I basically still fail.

A plan is being formulated that may just win something that I really desperately want. However right now I am failing because I am listening to chillout music and not being chilled out.

I hope this helps people understand a little bit more about the way I have been feeling over the last 30 days.

I'm not sure I comprehend half that post

I hope you feel that you win soon ^^

It is important to win

Thank you for half understanding. That is at least very good.

Hope things'll pick up soon azcn, even though I don't know what events you're reffering to. Sometimes learning from mistakes in failing helps us win in the future . I'm sure you will win in the future!

I JUST WON THE GAME!


Watch this video on Youtube.

all of this was over a game of audiosurf O.o

a few questions:
-what are your graphic settings
-you used a video option like negative, rusty, etc
-which programm you used for recording and comprimiting (right?)

Naa.

I fail to understand. Clearly this was more than Audiosurf, but what was it all about?

Graphics settings are - everything on maximum details but in windowed mode. No special video options. I just whacked the video in to Windows Movie Maker. I would have used Windows Media Encoder but I can't be bothered to download it.



There are other things going on. This is probably the biggest win I have made since this all started.

Ah I see, btw, very nice video. I suck at audiosurf.

May the win long continue azcn!

but my quality is really low against your video


Watch this video on Youtube.

I compressed it to 50MB.

Middle mouse button

I Know what the losing was about, as you said on teamspeak. But nice winning there on audiosurf, i never liked it, it gave me headaches

I know im late but.

Using WMM you will NEVER get good quality with small filesizes, it's not a good encoder.

Then again, any better codecs require a bit more than your basic knowledge of clicking buttons.

Sorry to hear about all this Azcn.
I understood everything you were saying and you have my sympathy for it. I can only hope that your luck improves and you start winning.
Shadow

Thanks.

Hey Aaron nice to see you on the forums again, even if it is a short passing by.

It's Aaron! Get better soon, we all miss you!

<33333333

Agreed <3

Double agreed.

Good luck aaron.

Triple agreed.

I'm not going to wish you any luck though, as its not going to help at all. I hope you just find it in yourself to overcome whatever the obsatcles may be.